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~*~ PA ~*~

We received our PA today! This is such great news! PA is Pre-approval from China that says yes we feel you will be good parents.
SO Nathan will be 18 months tomorrow! Does he know that he has a mommy, daddy, Booboo, and a sissy? We are planning on sending him and his nannies a care package.
We are so happy the call came in around 2:36 So next we are getting crazily ready for the dossier paperwork! SO Nathan we are coming for you! We are praying to have funds ready for us to travel...and pray to have him home for his 2nd birthday.



  

  

  

  

Time.

Do you ever feel like you have the lack of time? Do I sound like a infomercial?

We had planned on a garage sale and now will not be able to do it =o( We were hoping to raise some funds for the orphanage donation fee. I am going to try to Ebay everything I can... to raise the $3,000 orphanage fee...

Today I forgot to send Cameron lunch money as I was running behind...Ugh! But he was fed.. Talk about feeling like an idiot... Especially when he LOVES to eat! He ate at school and came home and made his usual PB & J sandwich...

My letter to get our PA shoudl be going out this week. and PRAYING for a PA next week? or sometime in September! It feels like we have so much to do to bring home our son...

My sweet Gavin Ryan

Today is the 3rd anniversary of our 2nd son's passing. We named him Gavin Ryan. Gavin was the twin A to Alyssa. We believe that he helped her to survive. I wonder what might have been..but I know what is. God had a plan that I simply do not understand for Gavin. But I understand that I am not suppose to understand. Following is a poem that a friend had made for me.

I just Want You to Know....
~For Gavin my sweet angel~

I just want you to know
your in my thoughts today
I cried many tears for you again
I just want you to know
you were thought of today
you were dreamed about yesterday.
No face to remember, no hand to hold,
no tears to wipe dry.
You were here for only a short while,
but in my heart you'll live forever.
I just want you to know
how much I dearly miss you today,
I wonder what color eyes, color hair
and how soft your skin would of been.
The world carries on in such a hurried way,
I wonder how do I function, when will I be ok?
I just want you to know,
you will be remembered everyday
and a special angel you are looking down,
and you are the brother to a special little girl and happy little boy who will one day see you-until then your always in our hearts-
and I want you to know,
I remembered you today
and I will miss you tommorrow
and I prayed for you yesterday.

~From your mommy with love~


Tonight we will light a Candle for our dear sweet son that was called to heaven before I met him. I know he is with my Grandpa Cockrum under an old oak tree sitting in a swing rocking enjoying the gentle breeze... Love you honey!

My interview

I think my interview today went very well.. or thats what I am hoping for...lol But it will still be weeks before they hire anyone! Doesn't anyone hire on the spot, anymore? I just want to work so we can bring Nathan home that much faster...

I think tonight will be a very late night... Alyssa fell asleep on the way to the interview 3:30 and woke up at 8:30 and now its midnight and she is going strong..lol
One neat thing about my 2 interviews is that the one that pays more his cousin just adopted from Russia and he thought that was a neat connection and the lady from today her sister just adopted domestically.. Kinda neat dont ya think?

Good news though I usually weigh in on Mondays but forgot so I lost 3 pounds in a week (okay 8 days) but thats a step in the right direction...

Cameron brought home flashcards tonight and one says "my" and the other says "yellow" he is suppose to know these words on cue... But Dont you think that he is memorizing them? I mean the same word and big word...

Alyssa has been doing great with the potty except for her thowing my cell in the potty! She is so much fun and she misses Cameron when he is gone... She keeps saying Heehee bus btop (her words not mine)

I am supposed to go get fitted for my dress tomorrow for my sisters wedding. I am her matron of horror (lol) and have a few months to get everything to get together.. She wants a bachorlette party but she is already married...so I dont think that will happen...

I spy....

something 3'2 and he yells BEE BEE BEE mommy! So I get up and look as we had the windows open and we have alot of bees/wasps because of all the trees and wilderness...I figured I could get Bunkee to get a bee... So I got the fly swatter just in case Bunkee did not feel up to his cat duties... I get to the window and there it is... really I was like awe come look kids and they are afraid.. It was a real lady bug! It was red not the orangey ones we see alot. And I think we all know on the adoption side that Lady Bugs means good luck or fortune! So i immediately thought that okay... maybe this is the paper I just faxed to the agency (there was an issue with assets and we didnt claim everything that we could have so we corrected it and faxed it and will mail the hard copy--hoping for a PA) So I figured that the butterfly was for my fax or for my free notary service!

So its almost dinner time and I take Nikita our doggie outside to do her doggie duty (I miss having a yard) and I come back in and Cameron has the phone (5 yr olds & phones nice mix) and says "phone is waiting for you on hold mom) so I look and there it is! One of the places I applied to - to help us get through the adoption stuff faster ($$$) was on our caller ID. So I called back and got a voicemail....and she called me back for a 2nd interview! Yippie! This is a night-time job and my in-laws would be watching the kids while I work (if I get this job) so that we can gets the funds a lil faster and maybe save for a bigger DP for our house that we are working on. This job will only be until we go to get Nathan and I would become a SAHM again. (Mitch likes for us to be at home)- So Tuesday at 5p will be my next interview and hopefully they will offer me somrthing... If I get this position then I will have one less bill as they would cover it for me =o) (its one of the perks)

So was the lady bug for the fax, notary, or 2nd interview? Or all the above?
This was the 1st lady bug I'd seen so far this year.

Cameron the last few days was acting "not quite himself" when getting off the bus so i called the school and I asked them to ask the driver if their was any issues with Cameron that needed to be addressed. I guess he was not getting into trouble but was getting corrected for getting up in his seat and talking to the kids behind him... A safety issue... So today before he left I asked him to sit like a big boy on the bus and that he could look forward or to teh sides but could not look back as the bus could throw him around and he could get hurt. So today he came off the bus a very Happy Boy! No problems said teh driver! Woohoo!! It was funny I was talking to another mom of a K'er and her son had a note sent home he had broken all of his crayons and pencils and was eating them... The mom said her son never did that..lol So I am happy to deal with the bus stuff as I know Cameron would not break his crayons on purpose as he will not use a broken crayon..lol (even if the tip breaks off).
Alyssa has been crying when Cam-boy gets on the bus since she wants to go also.. Today she called herself baby Pinky.. She loves PINK. ( a girly girl--sometimes) and corrects us if we say Lyssa, Sasa, etc she wants to be called Pinkie...lol
DHL today dropped off envelopes... THIRTY of them! Wow! So i have my envelopes...lol

Hope you have a great Holiday Weekend!

Music?

I don't believe that I figured out music...lol Woohoooo! I was looking for butterfly kisses and just could not find it.. I thought it was a perfect song for us... So we have "We are Family" This is one of those songs other than YMCA that make ya smile...lol
I am nervous about the adoption.. We have to send extra paperwork to try and get everything moving and PRAY for a PA!
It's really hard.. I want to show off Nathan (Xin, Xiao Liang) and cannot until we have PA... I am soooooooo in love with him. I am going to try to rush through the paperchase and get him home soon... Heck-- I am planning on getting a **job** to help bring him home that much sooner...Then once we leave and come home I'll return to be a SAHM again.. Mitch likes me at home and he thinks the kids learn alot more and the kids are upset when we mention jobs and me.... But we have explained as well as we can that its only temporary. PLus I think we will be getting another vehicle too in the future. Alyssa amazes me.. She asks about Our baby and wants me to go get him now... Sometimes she even grabs my shoes and purse....lol She is exicted. We all are. It surprises me that Mitch would like to do this one more time..and we are just barely at the tip of the ice berg...of paperwork...
I just have to say that I am so Thankful for meeting Suzanne (Hi Suzanne) as without her I would not have known about harrah's...and would not have stumpled onto the WC list....and would not had fallen in LOVE with this little boy. You know how they say everyone that enters your life enters it at the right time... I so believe this!
I know that I am blessed and we cannot wait to get little Nathan even though we have a LONG road... I pray all the paperwork falls into place and that we get our PA very soon!